Making Peace With The Mirror

It's oh so cliched but I need to start measuring myself in strength and not pounds. But why does something so simple feel so incredibly hard? People see my smile on a daily basis. They hear my laugh at least once an hour and that's what I'm best known for. The girl who's always smiling.…

Whole-Hearted

  I have never seen pretty much everyone at work look so disheartened all week so thank God it's finally the weekend. Finally time for me to get out of London for a couple of days and just get away from it all. Away from everything. I can't even put my finger on exactly what…

Ruptured Weekends Can Always Be Fixed

Well this wasn't exactly how I expected my weekend to start...actually last week was nothing if not full of unexpected events. I remember waking up in the middle of the night with this niggling pain in my lower abdomen. I tried to get comfortable but the pain refused to subside. I looked at my phone…

The World Looks Brighter From Behind a Smile

You're never fully dressed without a smile 3 years into my recovery. 6 years since the Demon appeared. There's days I have that negative niggle in the back of my mind, the one that whispers things like I'm not good enough, I need to lose weight, everything will be better once I'm lighter. But those days are becoming…

Easier Said Than Done

Okay, so the other day in an attempt to get out of the most horrific torrential rain I darted into the first coffee shop I could find. I had an hour to kill and I most certainly wasn't going to keep window shopping with my current non-existent-bank-balance. I grabbed my coffee and sat down just…

Hello Old Friend

Guess what I did last night? For the first time in 18-months? I went swimming. And I still can't quite believe it myself. I don't know why or when I decided to I just knew I wanted to go swimming and so I did. I dug out my old costume, hat, goggles, grabbed a towel…

Dance For Me Baby

You know what I love doing? Putting on some music and just dancing round my room...it's a lot more fun when I'm just in my underwear too! Nothing beats literally letting your hair down and just dancing to your hearts content. Nothing I love more than a good night out where I can bust out my…

Flawesome

I do not have the slightest clue what I'm doing, that's the adventure. I stopped worrying about it, that's the beauty.  There's something different about me lately. Something more me. I can't quite pin it down, well I think I can. I feel so happy. So unbelievably happy at the moment and there isn't a single reason…