If I Could Talk To My Younger Self

Dear 5-year-old me, Look at you, you dancing, laughing, happy as Larry little girl with the world's biggest smile on your face and an even bigger heart. Look at how happy you are and stay that way for as long as you possibly can. Keep smiling and laughing and dancing to your heart's content. Your…

Manchester Madness

What's the best way to prepare for next weeks' mocks? Go to Manchester for half the week! To be honest, a little bit of chill time never hurt anyone and seriously, this was the best decision I have made as of late. A lot of my friends are still in Manchester, some cycling friends, swimming…

Rose Gold Reminders

You know how they say weight loss happens where you don’t want to lose it but never from where you want it to? You know, we want our waists to be smaller but then we lose our chest instead? Yeah, well, my fingers have lost weight. Yes. You read that right and I hope you’re…

Sparkle

  It's strange how a day can genuinely turn everything around. I was really open in my last post and although my close friends have always read my writing I made it more public. Just through Instagram but the thing is, I don't care who reads this, just being more open, being less secretive really…

Mistakes are meant to guide you, not define you

This has been one hell of a horrific week, physically and mentally. I didn't even realise today was friday, I've been that lost all week. I was going out last night and could see how tired I still looked under that make up (and an instagram filter!). I can see there's a lack of my…

Pain demands to be felt

I don't quite know how I've ended up back here. Back at the bottom of the pit with the demon's claws digging tighter than ever. The pain I'm feeling lately is excruciating and I don't even remember how it got so bad. I did so well towards the end of summer but at the end…

‘Time Heals’, That’s a lie.

Right now I am a mixture of very happy and very sad and I’m trying so very hard to figure it all out. I’m trying to figure out all these feelings and emotions and words and thoughts and I can’t work out what they all mean. Everything I feel lately seems to be a contradiction…

The flower that blooms in adversity is the rarest and most beautiful of all

I saw someone I didn't want to see. More than half a year ago I came to London with my then boyfriend to attend an evening at a firm he was interested in and when we were walking down the street we walked past the same person and back then I froze. Yesterday I froze…